Hey, haven’t spoken to you in awhile… How’ve u been? Resting mustve been heavenly the past few days! It’s well deserved since you did put in your fair share the past few weeks. I’m sorry I wasn’t more considerate.
It’s been 3 days of real life and it’s already scaring me…this is when you usually tell me “why are you scared? There’s nothing to be scared about” and then reason me out of being scared. Gosh doing this on the train isn’t such a good idea…okay Casey, breathe and hold em in!! Scare those tears away! Thatta girl. Oh, I finally fixed the login problem with the work laptop. Took two full days!! How inefficient is Canada… And I needed it to work in order to place a request for a new USB drive (extra security feats) because stupid didn’t have my brain screwed on right and lost it the first day. All your fault!! It’s all I can think about…
I go home and all I want to do is tell you about my day. I want to know how you’ve been. I miss you. Maybe just talking to you…I’ve convinced myself to stop missing the physical you. Aren’t you proud?!
Its silly but I talk to loz more to feel connected to you…just knowing that you’re in the room next door. Stupid, right? Well glad to know he moved in things for you! Less work :)
Can you please work less? I really am worried about you…after experiencing my first 12+ hour work day on the first day, I’ve realized how demanding your lifestyle is… It’s not your choice but it’s something you have to do. It’s part of life.
It feels like you don’t want to talk anymore and you want time to yourself. But don’t worry, I’m preparing for the worst. Even though it seems like I want you more than the other way around, I’m ready. And I’m not afraid to let you know that. Frig, you have no idea how long I’ve had my walls up for just to protect myself. Now I’m standing here, naked, nothing to hide. My pride doesn’t matter anymore. All I want is you. If it’s not the case for you…then so be it. At least I tried.
Stop ignoring me, I miss you :(
