September 2011
7 posts
Him
Whenever I have the urge to say something irrational, all I can do is bite my tongue and wait till the rush of emotions washes out. And same as before, all I can do is trust that nothing’s changed…
I really miss the
“Morning”s,
“Good Night”s,
“Miss you”s, and
“xx”s.
Now I’m lucky if we even get to have a conversation. And when...
Life
Work starts in a few days… I’m not ready to accept it yet. I’ve never worked a full-time job in my life, not even sure if last summer even counted! I practically had zero responsibility and it was “okay” if I screwed up because that’s what is expected of interns. But EEKS no more of that anymore! The big world calls for big responsibilities, and grown up...
I just wonder if he actually cares anymore…but all I can do is trust that he does and trust that nothings changed.
But what’s the point of holding on to something too tightly? We have no right to hold on. If any thing still decided to come running back to you, consider yourself lucky.
What I want…
I want the sparks, the fireworks, the longing to talk to each, and not for everything to become a mundane routine.
I want you to be excited and want to talk to me, not because you have to. And being exclusive doesn’t help…it means you know I’ll always be there whenever you call. But can you reciprocate?
Him
I mean, what CAN he/we do? Nothing. The greatest gift we can have is time. The rest will hopefully fall into place… Good things come to those who wait, right? NTS: stop complaining about the small things. He has enough stress as it is. Say something whenever in doubt.
Family
You can’t change who you’re a family with. I can’t change the fact Karens a princess, and that I try to compensate for her lack of responsibility. I can’t help that my dad is impatient and throws tantrums easily, so I try to make up by being the mediator. I can’t help that my mom… I can’t really name one bad thing about her besides nagging a bit too...
Him
It’s been just over a month since I left HK but feels like forever. And the longer I am away, the faster I feel like what we had is slipping away, like it was all a dream, like it never happened at all. And all I can do is stare at my phone and read our messages to know that you still exist, that you care. But through a message, it’s hard to tell…and hard to know why I’m...